Am I lost
Within the waves of my heart
Unfurling passion & desires
Not known to me,
Burning me inside, deep inside.

I try & search myself
My sweet innocent self,
which smelled of morning hue
which seemed like fresh breeze,
But there is only haze
not sure if I'm in daze.

All I know is that
I exist in a surreal world
I cannot recognise it, but live in it
Encompassed within my closed self
Treasuring every moment of pain,
sweet pain.

I'm lost but...
I know the way out, though I don't seek it
I know to search my soul, but I won't.
The strange feeling inside
has made me its own,
And I've given myself to it
to live with it!