I’m very sad. It’s a big let down for me. I ’m so emotionally shocked that I cannot express it in words and neither feel the pain that is cuffing my heart every minute. ‘Where did I go wrong?’ This is the question I repeatedly ask myself. But there is no answer that comes back to me. I haven’t certainly expected such a treat from you, my life. The only thing that I understand is that I’ve got ditched by you and my life. This is something that I’ve never expected!

I just want someone to understand me, my condition, my suffering that you’ve caused me, the person I least expected would gift me anything such. Why did you play with my heart, my trust, my faith and my understanding? Don’t you feel for me that you hurt and bruise me time and again? After so many years being together, today I’m left alone. A loner in spite of being surrounded by people, a loner with a lost heart wandering on mindless thoughts, a loner who has lost the objective to live and has no reason to die. I don’t even know if a treacherer like you should be punished or should I bear this pain like I’ve borne all these years your love, your failure and success, your fakeness, your truth! 

I know I’m to be blamed, because time and again I’ve trusted you, tried to rectify you, given you chances to prove yourself, trusted your lies knowing that it’s a mistake I’m committing again, have supported you like a pillar. Throughout I’ve pulled you out of testing times. But I couldn’t help because I loved you like hell. That was my biggest mistake – as all the while I was loving you, you were just pretending your love for me! Today you stab me all over, misunderstanding me in every thing I say, treating me as if I don’t exist for you, looking at me like I’ve doomed your life. I haven’t expected anything from you neither physical support nor financial aid. But I thought that in mind we’re bonded together. Alas! That is the biggest lie I’ve been living with.

I don’t have anyone to turn to. God I just trust you because I know are there and will always pull me out of the biggest crisis of my life. My parents are not beside me but you can see all that I’m going through and can hear all those words that are being spoken to me. If anywhere I go wrong please let my conscience feel it and let me rectify it. Whenever anyone does any wrong to me give me the courage to fight back. Please don’t make me weak, God!